HAMILTON WATCH



Isn’t is a small world when you come face to face with the person from a magazine, or in this case the model from an ad campaign that bares your own name?
Well, that’s exactly what has happened, without even me knowing.

Months ago, the buses of New York carried the poster of a model advertising ‘Hamilton Wrist Watches’. I became fascinated with the poster because it bared my own name. As many of you may have by now realised, I have an obsession with my name, this doesn’t make me a narcissist, just that I like seeing it displayed in signs, posters, newspapers, labels etc, I get a kick out of it.
Hamilton Watches are very big here in America, and ever since I saw that poster I had wanted my own copy. I never got round to actually getting hold of the poster or a Hamilton Wrist Watch.

But just last month my friends B & E, introduced me to Anthony Anderson, a raw model. He isn’t raw, is just that he is very much into eating raw foods, which I am slowly learning about. There is a link to his website on the right if you want to check all about his eating discoveries and recommendations, for all you healthy eaters out there.

Soon after that I discovered he is the ‘Hamilton Wrist Watch’ Model, whose poster was on the buses in the spring. I was very surprised to come face to face with him. But I guess the universe works in mysterious ways; I didn’t get the poster or the watch, but I got the model that was in the poster for the watch as a friend.

SATISFACTION IS PERFECTION 2: THE NEXT BEST THING



Why is it that we want what we can’t have? And we never seem to be satisfied with what we’ve already got?
It’s a dilemma of two halves, that never seems to answer itself, but most importantly, the answer to what we need and want is right in front of us.

I find myself back in the Big Apple and I questioning needs and wants versus what I’ve already got and I must say that I find it problematic trying to be satisfied with what I’ve got, because I haven’t got what I want, but what I want is not exactly what I need and what I need is not really what I want. So I settle for what I have anyways.

There comes a point in people’s lives when they seem to have it all and it doesn’t satisfy them enough, because they are always wanting more. And then there are people that have nothing at all and struggle to attain what they want.
I find myself in between both these categories and it is fair to say that most human beings are always looking for ‘the next best thing’.

For a person that to the outside world seems to have it all and can have what ever I want, I seem to draw a false image because in reality nothing is what is seems. I don’t seem to be there nor am I here. Only if you really know me, will you get to know what my life is all about. I don’t know where I am. I’m always in two places and my belongings are mostly in storage throughout the year because I seem to have difficulty settling in one place and have I difficulty making up my mind in which city I’d rather be; London or New York?

I’m torn between two cities that offer what I want, both come with their ups and downs and I wish I could live one city that offers ‘the best of both’; London and New York. If there were a place on earth that offers such qualities I’d move there right away; maybe Los Angeles is my “best next thing?”

At the same time, I question what I have, even though I am satisfied with it, I can’t help but think, is this it? Is this as good as it gets? Obviously it can’t be, but what if this is it? What if living in New York City is taken away? Well I guess I must jump on the wagon and enjoy the ride for as long as it lasts, because I don’t know when I’ll be able to ride this rollercoaster again.

I’m forced to be satisfied and satisfaction is hard to achieve because I’m always seeking perfection, knowing that perfection can never really achieved.
Life is not perfect but I’m content with what I have with the knowledge that I will have what I want and need at the same time or at least until ‘the next best thing’ comes and crosses my path. So it goes without saying that satisfaction is perfection.

Life happens and whichever ways situations are thrown at us, whatever bumps on the roads happen and difficult dilemmas present themselves on us, we must deal with them with positively. We must pick ourselves up from the ground when life hits us down and we must do it with a sense of pride and satisfaction because life is like that, giving us things and taking them away again. In reality we already have what we need and could ever want in front of us, we just need to open our eyes and see the reality for what it really is.

SATISFACTION IS PERPECTION




In a world where things are hard to come by we struggle to become satisfied with what we surround our selves with.
It may seem a little selfish that sometimes the things we want the most, we do not have and yet we are not satisfied with what we have because the things or people around us even events that occur do not hold the attributes that would modestly satisfy us all.

In the past week since my return to New York after an eventful-less summer in London, I craved the sounds, smells and city life and yet I was mesmerised because I even began to question my own reasoning, my own actions and my own surroundings.
Was this what I had longed for? Is this what I’ve been wanting all along?

Living in the city is tough shit, proving yourself is a lot of work, learning to be satisfied the little that we have is unfathomable.
If the apartment in which we live in, the job that we have, the clothes that we wear are not the things we want then tough shit too. We have to learn to be satisfied with what we already have, which will prove a great benefit for what ever it is that we will receive in the future.

I’ve learnt to be satisfied with what I have, but not complacent, there is a big different. Satisfaction comes from learning that the little or nothing that we have will ‘just do’ for the time being, where as complacent will mean ‘giving in’ to what we have and nothing else because that’s ‘just is’.

Because something is ‘just is’ doesn’t mean it’s not going to change. If we live in a run down apartment that is about to fall down, do we either run a mile or be complacent because that ‘just is’ what we have? Well the answer is neither. We learn to be satisfied with our 250sq ft apartment and make it a home. It is more to do with gratefulness that there is a roof over our heads than nothing else. Obviously we live there knowingly that this wont last for long, because there are better things ahead.

Sometimes I seek perfectionism in even the smallest of details that I once thought I was OCD. I believed that everything had to be of a certain way, that things needed to be planned. But with pure perfectionism doesn’t truly exist, the more we strive to achieve perfectionism, the more we get of the opposite.

Certain situations are out of our reach and control; it is impossible to control everything around us. We just have to learn to be satisfied with the way things have gone, learn to have no regrets about the way things have happened, because they usually work out in the end, and most of all they tend to work better in the end even if at the time they seem not to be going your way.

So if you are planning a holiday, leave the small details out. Chances are things wont happen the way you want them to go, but come the end of the holiday, things would have worked out.
I recently spent a week in Miami, and as OCD as I can be about controlling situations and events, the smallest of details didn’t occur, as I would have hoped. But in general I was satisfied and pleased that things worked out. I needn’t have worried if at the time things weren’t stirring in the direction I wanted them to because I ended up having a great time overall.

So now that I’m in a new quest or more like my last quest in New York City for a new opportunity, I am satisfied with the way things are, even if right now they aren’t, as I would want them. Chances are that things are working out, as they do; things have a magic way of working out in the end, for the better of course. So I choose to be satisfied with what I have and the way things are going, because it is as near as perfection as I am.